Who wouldn't want perfection?

We all crave and yearn for it.

I woke up this morning feeling uneasy. The kind of feeling you get when it feels like you have many things unsettled in your life. Dreadful. As much as I was fully prepared and programmed to live by this day as part of my routine, someone sent me a reminder - it is the little things in life that can very easily put a smile on your face. I opened my mailbox earlier and saw a familiar name. My little cousin decided to drop me an email. It was a really simple message. Regards, thoughts, school, etc., but as simple as it was, my heart warmed up as I read it. A really pleasant surprise :) And suddenly, today doesn't seem so meaningless afterall.

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I admit, I am flawed. Many times in life, I take people and things around me for granted. And everytime the former happens, I end up feeling shitty and lousy. It doesn't take long for the aftermath to occur. One minute. One minute is all it takes for me to regret certain actions and words of mine. Then, I try to make up for those effects and consequences of my stupid emotions and mood. Doesn't help much, because I know there are things in life that you just can't undo. Learn - Do not stupidly say and do hurtful things in future just because you have to deal with your own mess and problems. Everyone else has their own fair share of mess to deal with. They deserve to be treated with respect.

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Went for a run today after 2 months haha. Felt damn good. Will never regret my surgery back in December because I feel so free now :) Psychological effects.

I left my very precious company law textbook at old canteen A after lunch that day, only to realise 4 hours later that it is no longer in my hands. Omgosh totally freaked out and rushed back to the scene of my crime (of being careless). Thank goodness my textbook was still on the chair :D PHEW! I guess that's positive karma hahah. Gotta do more good deeds :) MAYBE, just maybe, life is fair in it's own ways.

Research methods is a chore I swear :( I don't feel good about this sem at all. BIG HUGE sigh zzz.

On the bright side, after this sem there's gonna be a long break and hopefully, I'll be able to get an internship :)

Ah, sometimes, I feel like I'm a paranoid girl hahah oh well! C'est la vie :) things to look forward to:

1) cut hair

2) threading

3) MANICURE and PEDICURE

4) pineapple tarts :)

TGIF! :D

• So many 21st birthdays to attend!

Despite being in the Main Committee for two academic years, this was my first Bouldermania. Many times, I think about how the whole wall was built from scratch, how many impromptu decisions had to be made on the day itself, how I learned to do registration, randomize climbing order, tabulate scores etc, and I can't help but feel really thankful for such a great club with helpful and reliable friends and people within. Thank you UMC :)

You can't believe how much I miss climbing and bouldering. Being involved in the preparation and event just made me miss the sport more. Wednesday night, as we were setting routes for Bouldermania Carnival on Thursday, I helped Uncle B vet the routes. No, I didn't boulder for fear of being murdered by my mum, but I touched tiles - chose tiles, screwed them in, taped them. Felt really good to be able to reignite the passion. I guess all this while, its probably just me telling myself that I don't have to start climbing again and so I avoided and managed to live with it. Maybe, if there's a chance in future, I'd really like to climb again with all those climbers and good friends that I used to have fun with, laugh with, train with and suffer with :) So many friendships I've built and gained because of the sport :) I guess I am indeed a lucky girl.

Something to live for.

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Ah, and I found out so many news and happenings that every single one of them surprises me. Life just has its way of making you smile and frown when you least expect to. Life's good :)

Time to gain momentum and be a mugger all over again. Give me some strength. ha!

Thnks Fr Th Mmrs.